Is It Worth It?

Oh God, this stupid thing that comes to my mind over and over, when confidence turns into doubt.
When our faith is about to fade away.

I'm just gonna take some water and then stay awake up all night to prayer right now. I hope that when everything isn't going so well, there'll be God who leads me to do something right. Please, God, I don't like being faithless.
I just want to make a life more better, is it worth it?

I Would At Least Know I Tried

I might have missed my chance.
But I would at least know I tried.
I'm trying not to confuse sadness with regret, I understand that perhaps I had a choice in the matter;
or perhaps I believe in fate; that possibly could kill me..


I've learned this, at least, by my experiment:
I know that I've wasted all these years looking and holding on for something, a sort of trophy I'd get only if I really, really did enough to deserve it.

But I don't want it anymore,

I simply cannot continue on the same path and fall down a thousand times with the same reason.
Life is a world full of risk taking and possibilities,
What would I have to stick on something I know it wouldn't ever belong to me...
There is nothing left,

Broken apart by all the “I don't want to ever remember” years
So many things broke my heart, not so many came to mend it 
But in the end,
I will always be "The Tough Girl".

And if one day someone ask me, "Why wouldn't you try again?",
Well,
"I would at least know I tried,"
"I have moved on."

Dare To Be..

Dare to Be..

When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully.

When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light.

When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it.

When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.

When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.

When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.

When you’re feeling tired, dare to keep going.

When times are tough, dare to be tougher.

When love hurts you, dare to love again.

When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal.

When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.

When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.

When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.

When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great too.

When the day has ended, dare to feel as you’ve done your best.

Dare to be the best you can –

At all times, Dare to be!


-  Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

Indomie Kuah Susu.... FAIL

Banyak banget kayaknya yang udah nyoba ini makanan, sampe temen gue pernah pasang dp bbm mie kuah susu buatannya sendiri di kostan, dan gue, "Ohemji, seriusan?"
Terus gue buka kaskus dan bacain yang lagi jadi Hot Thread, dan ada yang bikin tentang resep mie buat anak kostan. Begitu gue baca semuanya ternyata ada juga loh resep Indomie kuah susu. Is that really tasty?

Dan karena udah penasaran sampe kebawa laper (emang pada dasarnya udah kelaperan dari pagi belom makan), mumpung hari ini gue lagi ada di rumah, jadi gue buru-buru ke dapur dan nyari bahan buat bikin sih mie kuah susu ini.
Ah seperti biasa, susunya enggak ada. 
Akhirnya gue pergi ke warung dan nyari susu seadanya, yang penting murni (?). Karena susu Ultra yang apa itu yang gak manis gak ada, terpaksa gue beli yang susu kental manis dengan bayangan kalo gue bakal ngasih air banyak sehingga manisnya ilang.
skip~
Mulai rebus mienya dan masukin telor, lalu potongin ayam sama daun bawang. Pokoknya pake bahan yang ada di kulkas aja. Begitu mienya udah lembek (haha), mulai masukin susunya yang udah dikasih air dan manisnya udah lumayan gak ada.
Begitu mendidih mulai deh masukin semua bahannya, mulai dari mie, ayam, bumbunya, daun bawang, sedikit garam (biar agak asin).
Warnya kuahnya enggak putih bersih, bener kan ya? Karena udah kecampur bumbu dan segala macem. Begitu kira kira udah siap buat dimakan, gue langsung hidangin di mangkok.


Pas dirasain kok manis ya -__-
padahal udah gak manis loh tadi airnya banyak. Okelah
Ambil nasi, air putih, dan menuju ke ruang tamu, nyalain tv dan mulai makan dengan semangat.
Awal dirasain.... oke lama lama enak.
Dirasain lagi.... oke ini enak karena kelaperan atau karena emang enak?
Dirasain lagi..... It's like drinking a milk while mouth full of noodle, the taste is so strange. Yiaayk~
Dirasain lagi.... hmm gak tau ah, mau abisin terus langsung cuci piringnya.

LOL

FAIL. 
FYI, gue emang pada dasarnya gak begitu suka susu. Kecuali kalo lagi pengen aja, itu juga pokoknya itungan pengen susu aja bisa berapa bulan sekali. (bener bener susu murni loh, bukan yang udah jadi makanan atau minuman lain). Like what I said, the taste is so weird, strange and so uniqe. But not that kind of food I'd like to be my daily food in Depok later. No
Gue mending bikin Pajeon daripada mie kuah susu loh -___-
That's my opinion though. 

What I Think, What I Do.

It's always nice to blog everything I want here. I mean this is my world, I shout everything in here. About life, love-life, friends, hobbies, my thoughts, and everything I need to tell. I don't really care if some people will judge me and say, "Oh my God, you're so freak, keep telling something not really good and it's like a shit". But I always kind of hoping that some people will love to read all the stories I created just because it's fun and I tell everything informative and... I don't know, it's just nice to read this blog, I guess.

Glad to back home. Sometimes I feel bored in Depok, except my lovely room (if you read my story about designing my room) and I do all the things I want without afraid of my mom will call me and bother me all the time. Lol
My daily activities in Depok after class over is back to my "second home".
And if I get bored listening to music, I will put my guitar, I mean it's my friend's guitar, he let his guitar stay with me for awhile (thank you {}{}{}), and I play a couple songs, sing it perfectly like I'm a pro but still, with lower voice or I will get my window broken with a lot of glasses hitting my window. Haha

Stop about my activities in Depok.

I really like to tell everything in here till I tell a lot of things that is not really important to be told, gosh. Lol
I play guitar, and sing, and paint as well. Don't know what else could be so much fun except those things. Oh yeah, my "sacred" thing to do right now, it's really really important is learning to talk like british, I mean the accent.
Is it because of you are a fan of 1D?
Yes, no. Not really. Before 1D exist as the greatest boyband in the world (haha), I like talking with british accent, Harry Potter made me like that. I started to learn about UK, about the culture, and the accent, I started to love UK. Sometimes I always asking to God why I was born in this place for god sake, not in some great place with great life.
SKIP~~
Ah, games! yes I love to play a lot of games. Mostly horror games. My friend ever told me, "Oh my God, Eny, you're a girl but your games is a hardcore games. Why don't you play some barbie stuff? lol" that's a boy told me like that. I have a several fps games, like COD, Medal Of Honor, and some horror games, and the rest is mini games. You know when you're watching an action movie where there is a girl who could use gun and it's like, "Oh my God, she's really cool". And because I'm not able to use any gun is real life, and I have no gun except my brother, I will never be able to kill anything like in the movies, lol, so I'm playing those action games which can make me feel like I'm a hero. Lol what a shit.