Bahah It seems like I'm a pessimistic bitch (It's an absolute fact about me not "seems" haha). My anxiety becomes more and more unbearable recently, like I can't be positive at all about my life and all I wanna do is quit and bring my comfort zone back.
A lot of my friends and family advise me to hang in there a bit longer. But all I can say, every time I thought I finally understood how this accounting software works, I was wrong!
I have made some mistakes for like 3 times already in my 6 days at work. *Kill me*
3 or 4 times?
Okay these all I can remember atm:
1. Wrong date input
2. Wrong amount input
3. Release invoice without checking the customer's balance, turned out that customer had not fully paid its bill yet! (Kill me kill me!)
4. Something that wasn't my fault but had to take a responsibility for it.
Okay, 4 times in a week.
I even messaged my junior (A finance student) and my seniors in my former office where I was doing an internship about my current job. I asked them a lot about accounting stuff, like what does this mean, why is it like this, like that, how to know this, that, BLA BLA BLA. That makes me look so stupid, I kept saying I had been studying economics for 7 years: This is the result.
Luckily my senior didn't say "Ask another employee in your office instead". I would be dead embarrassed if she said that.
I could ask other employees in my office, but I didn't want to. Since I'm not close to any of them yet. That just makes me feel awkward asking them more and more knowing I have made mistakes even after I asked them how things work. They might have decided to fire me after 2 months, or sooner.
SOOOOO Pessimist. How to kill my negative thoughts?
A lot of my friends and family advise me to hang in there a bit longer. But all I can say, every time I thought I finally understood how this accounting software works, I was wrong!
I have made some mistakes for like 3 times already in my 6 days at work. *Kill me*
3 or 4 times?
Okay these all I can remember atm:
1. Wrong date input
2. Wrong amount input
3. Release invoice without checking the customer's balance, turned out that customer had not fully paid its bill yet! (Kill me kill me!)
4. Something that wasn't my fault but had to take a responsibility for it.
Okay, 4 times in a week.
I even messaged my junior (A finance student) and my seniors in my former office where I was doing an internship about my current job. I asked them a lot about accounting stuff, like what does this mean, why is it like this, like that, how to know this, that, BLA BLA BLA. That makes me look so stupid, I kept saying I had been studying economics for 7 years: This is the result.
Luckily my senior didn't say "Ask another employee in your office instead". I would be dead embarrassed if she said that.
I could ask other employees in my office, but I didn't want to. Since I'm not close to any of them yet. That just makes me feel awkward asking them more and more knowing I have made mistakes even after I asked them how things work. They might have decided to fire me after 2 months, or sooner.
SOOOOO Pessimist. How to kill my negative thoughts?
