Minggu, 16 Juli 2017

It's Been Only Three Days

Posted by Unknown at 22.16


I KNOW
It's been only three days.
But it feels like WTF, already. I know it will sounds like excuses, but,
I HATE ACCOUNTING!
I kinda have love-hate relationship with the whole economics thing.
I hate finance.
I hate quantity data--that's why I chose SWOT as my thesis, because I enjoy working with qualitative data which I can share my thoughts through writing.
I hate formulas, I hate math.
That's not my passion at all.

A lot of excuses.

I still remember the manager asked me, "What would you do if you were stress at work? In case there will be so much pressure when you're working here"
And I was gladly and confidently answered him, "Remember why I choose this job and what I want to achieve in the future" *Something like that.
Now I will gladly say to myself that I was a big LIAR during the interview LOL (Aren't we all?)
I don't know if I can do well.
I don't know if I want to.
Accounting was the only thing I had always tried to avoid when I was in high school (The funny thing is I was an accounting student in high school haha).
I was happier studying business management in University because I didn't study accounting much like I was in high school, although I had to study finance which I'm not fond of.

Some people told me to give up, some of them advise me to fight a bit longer and beat my anxiety. But I still don't understand with the whole accounting software thing at my office. Every time I thought I finally understood, I was wrong. And I don't know what I can do tomorrow without my mentor (Former internship accountant at my office). GAHH.. Life is just too cruel to my weak stupid heart and mind.

Can I stay a bit longer and finally enjoy working there?
Can I even be friends with all the employees there? They are so individualist.

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