It's been a long time since I posted my story here, I guess..
a lot has happened with my life, and this one is just a huge new experience to me, that I have never ever imagined before. I'm not cheating on my boyfriend, instead, I have two boyfriends now with his permission. Lol
Actually, I don't know if I really like this guy, and I don't even know why I said yes when my bf brought up this conversation and asked me if I want to have another boyfriend. But whatever happens happens. Now I have two boyfriends, and it's crazy, all of my friends said either I'm crazy, or my boyfriend is. The point is up to me, I'm like playing with fire, I would either end up happy or destroyed by my own decision.
So this new guy is my boyfriend's best friend in the army, said they have been friends for five or six years already and they are just like brothers. Not much I can tell about this guy since he's working in a serious business more than my boyfriend, and I really like what he's doing in the army. It's cool and kinda exciting to me that I'm now one of the parts in his life.
A part of me is liking this guy so fricken much, and getting really anxious. I'm not being exaggerating, but I ever thought if I met him earlier then I would make this guy my one and only boyfriend. You know, being in a relationship with two guys is just new, strange and too much attention to give. Lol
But luckily, one is busy with the army that he can't really on the internet, one is busy with his masters degree, and I'm busy with my job; my tiring and stressful and low-pay job. So yeah, drama-free.
As Indonesian, if you're 20 or older, then you're all adult and is ready to get married. I'm 23 now and don't know if I'm ready to it, to be a married woman. But seeing my friends are one by one getting married makes me want to do it, want to take that step as fast as I can; getting married.
I even asked my boyfriend about getting married, and he said he would like to marry me next year. I was a little bit happy and speechless hearing that. I kept saying don't joke around like that especially to a girl, and he said he's not joking.
But what would I do with the other guy?lol
definitely playing with fire, my friend said the sooner I break up with the other guy, the better. But I don't have a gut to say "Let's break up", especially that I'm getting really comfortable with him. I'll just wait until he breaks up with me, but I don't know. I don't know if I can do that.
A few weeks ago my boyfriend said "I think he really loves you, he told me that he wants to have a baby with you. There's no better bonding than having babies with someone you love.";
Especially the situation where he can't naturally have babies without a help of a medical treatment or technology. That's so sweet hearing it but scary at the same time, which, if he really wants to have a baby with someone he loves, then could it be that he really love me that much? Ok stop being so exaggerating. It's not happening yet, he might just joking (This is what I always tell to myself)
And this is another part of me, a part that doesn't bothered by the irrationally thing such as having two boyfriends.
I guess I'll just do it and see what happens next, whether I end up with one of the guys, or not at all. I don't want to take a risk, I don't want to let them go, I know it sounds selfish, but with everything that has happened with my life, I don't think it's that bad, in fact, they are always there when I need them the most. it's not physically yet, but I don't mind, it's either worth the effort, or just a whole two years of wasting my life loving guys that hundred miles away from me. I love them so much until I'm willing to leave everything behind, and have a new life with them.
a lot has happened with my life, and this one is just a huge new experience to me, that I have never ever imagined before. I'm not cheating on my boyfriend, instead, I have two boyfriends now with his permission. Lol
Actually, I don't know if I really like this guy, and I don't even know why I said yes when my bf brought up this conversation and asked me if I want to have another boyfriend. But whatever happens happens. Now I have two boyfriends, and it's crazy, all of my friends said either I'm crazy, or my boyfriend is. The point is up to me, I'm like playing with fire, I would either end up happy or destroyed by my own decision.
So this new guy is my boyfriend's best friend in the army, said they have been friends for five or six years already and they are just like brothers. Not much I can tell about this guy since he's working in a serious business more than my boyfriend, and I really like what he's doing in the army. It's cool and kinda exciting to me that I'm now one of the parts in his life.
A part of me is liking this guy so fricken much, and getting really anxious. I'm not being exaggerating, but I ever thought if I met him earlier then I would make this guy my one and only boyfriend. You know, being in a relationship with two guys is just new, strange and too much attention to give. Lol
But luckily, one is busy with the army that he can't really on the internet, one is busy with his masters degree, and I'm busy with my job; my tiring and stressful and low-pay job. So yeah, drama-free.
As Indonesian, if you're 20 or older, then you're all adult and is ready to get married. I'm 23 now and don't know if I'm ready to it, to be a married woman. But seeing my friends are one by one getting married makes me want to do it, want to take that step as fast as I can; getting married.
I even asked my boyfriend about getting married, and he said he would like to marry me next year. I was a little bit happy and speechless hearing that. I kept saying don't joke around like that especially to a girl, and he said he's not joking.
But what would I do with the other guy?lol
definitely playing with fire, my friend said the sooner I break up with the other guy, the better. But I don't have a gut to say "Let's break up", especially that I'm getting really comfortable with him. I'll just wait until he breaks up with me, but I don't know. I don't know if I can do that.
A few weeks ago my boyfriend said "I think he really loves you, he told me that he wants to have a baby with you. There's no better bonding than having babies with someone you love.";
Especially the situation where he can't naturally have babies without a help of a medical treatment or technology. That's so sweet hearing it but scary at the same time, which, if he really wants to have a baby with someone he loves, then could it be that he really love me that much? Ok stop being so exaggerating. It's not happening yet, he might just joking (This is what I always tell to myself)
And this is another part of me, a part that doesn't bothered by the irrationally thing such as having two boyfriends.
I guess I'll just do it and see what happens next, whether I end up with one of the guys, or not at all. I don't want to take a risk, I don't want to let them go, I know it sounds selfish, but with everything that has happened with my life, I don't think it's that bad, in fact, they are always there when I need them the most. it's not physically yet, but I don't mind, it's either worth the effort, or just a whole two years of wasting my life loving guys that hundred miles away from me. I love them so much until I'm willing to leave everything behind, and have a new life with them.
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