I Would At Least Know I Tried

I might have missed my chance.
But I would at least know I tried.
I'm trying not to confuse sadness with regret, I understand that perhaps I had a choice in the matter;
or perhaps I believe in fate; that possibly could kill me..


I've learned this, at least, by my experiment:
I know that I've wasted all these years looking and holding on for something, a sort of trophy I'd get only if I really, really did enough to deserve it.

But I don't want it anymore,

I simply cannot continue on the same path and fall down a thousand times with the same reason.
Life is a world full of risk taking and possibilities,
What would I have to stick on something I know it wouldn't ever belong to me...
There is nothing left,

Broken apart by all the “I don't want to ever remember” years
So many things broke my heart, not so many came to mend it 
But in the end,
I will always be "The Tough Girl".

And if one day someone ask me, "Why wouldn't you try again?",
Well,
"I would at least know I tried,"
"I have moved on."